Okay technically, this is list 5, but I’m just gonna pretend that 5 happened in an alternative universe and my evil twin sister named Mana deleted it while I was asleep, my bad.
Happy New Year! Geez, it’s been a while, huh? So let’s talk about the elephant in the room. As you may have noticed, the domain name has changed. As I mentioned on social media, I felt like I needed a bit of a change. I had a 7-year itch so to speak. This, coupled with the fact that .orgs are now considerably more expensive than .coms and namari.com isn’t available, I decided to let namari.org go. Another reason for the change is because I want to go back to my roots.
I’m a writer. I’ve always been a writer. I’m also a gamer, but writing has been something that I go back to because it was the reason why I survived my school life. So my goal will be to…you guessed it, write more! I have a lot of ideas in my head and the problem is that it’s actually incredibly overwhelming right now, but I’ll be fine.
So, what have I been up to since October 2017?
- I never mentioned it, but I worked in a toxic work environment for a bit. My co-workers were, for the most part, awesome, but I had a manager with a Napoleon complex from hell and I just couldn’t deal with it. I had more anxiety attacks in 10 months than I did in the 3 years that I was back in the workforce. Basically, I was just about at that point that I was at relapse alert, and I couldn’t do it. So I found another job. It is leaps and bounds better. I love my co-workers, and I love what I do there. Granted, being a creative mind, it doesn’t always fill my need to be creative, but I do get to work with my hands, so there’s that.
- I have a 7-year-old now.
- Marzipan. I haven’t mentioned much about this project, but it’s the one that I’m trying to focus on. I will explain a bit more at another time but yeah, that is still a thing.
- On the gaming front, I still play Final Fantasy 14. I am still a Bard. They just released Blue Mage and I’m mad about how they went about it, but hey, it’s all good. I also have a screenshot addiction.
- Speaking of creative projects, as I mentioned above, I am having this issue where I have several ideas, and including all the other thoughts and ideas in my head, whether creating-related or not, it’s causing a form of unprecedented brain overload. Burnout is a thing, but this is something that I’ve never experienced before, and it’s especially worse this week. Someone I spoke to described it as “creative paralysis”, but it’s not only a creative paralysis per se; it is starting to affect every aspect of my life. That is why it took so 19 days to write this blog entry, and it might be another month (maybe not) before I post again. I’m hoping that it will pass but if someone can put into words as to what the hell this is that I’m feeling, let me know because I hate wanting to do all the things, but all the things are overwhelming, so I will do none of the things.
What I’m hoping I can do
Other than the obvious write more, I want to share my journey as a writer. I am going to talk about bits and pieces of my life. I’m going to talk about writing. I’m going to do it in my true voice. Folks, I’m not trying to sell anything (at least not yet). I want to be able to connect with my readers on a more personal basis. This isn’t to say that I won’t advertise products once in a while, because this girl doesn’t mind some extra cash, but I don’t want to have seminars and the like. I want to be me.
So yeah, I’m still alive and I hope to be better about this blogging thing this year. I need to be for my own good.